It really has been a long time since I updated any art on here.
Truthfully, I've been in a really bad dry spell. I've done plenty in my classes here at college, but I guess you can say i'm a bit paranoid and/or nervous about putting things up on the internet. It's quite silly, but I have my own weird logic in my head to explain it. I had put up a ton of art from my first year of college here, but otherwise, I haven't finished anything personal in a very long time. I'm extremely rusty. But it's not all a problem I think.
As rusty as I am with my art and drawing and getting down to work on personal projects, the stories that I want to develop using my art have really come a long way. I've been trying to get into the habit of writing a little something each day, and I need to start carrying a notebook with me wherever I go for ideas (I already try to carry a mini sketchbook) The style I've been trying to develop, like always, looks better in my head than on paper. The way you draw is a very hard habit to break haha. So far, I'm slowly getting more and more satisfied with how my designs are turning out. It's about time I came to the realization that art evolves over time. If I keep waiting for a specific style to magically drip out of my pen that looks exactly like how I pictured it, Ill be waiting forever. But of course, frustration is common, but i'm sure that's the same for everyone.

ANYHOW. That was a bit more of a rambling for my own mental sake haha.
So, what have I been doing? I've been animating, actually.
So far, I've gotten several hand-drawn animations and a couple computer ones finished. While they aren't perfect, or even amazing, it proved one thing: I can totally do it.
I was waiting for that moment where I get to school, try it, and be like SGDFMHXFGL:HFNMBGF WHATISTHISBLACKMAGIC *flips table*, But, that didn't happen. Well. It happened once, but thats expected.
My problem is that I have a habit of expecting too much of myself and then not putting enough work into it to fulfill those expectations. So then I get discouraged to even finish it. This happens frequently, unfortunately. Do I know it's silly? Of course I do. But we're all human. It happens. Realizing you have a problem is the first step to solving it, right?
So i'm going to keep trying a little harder until creating something tangible becomes natural. So far, only imagining and daydreaming come so naturally to me that you could call it an addiction.
But an idea is only as good as it's execution.
So here's to hoping I can kick myself in the ass and get to work!
And maybe even grow the balls to put some of it up.